My thinking has been profoundly and wonderfully shaped by a
number of authors who deserve credit here. One is So Sinopoulos-Lloyd, whose
article I mention below. Another is Lupa Greenwolf, whose frank, no-nonsense
blog has me calling "YES!" every time I read it. Books relevant to
the discussion below include: The Spell of the Sensuous by David Abram, and
Beyond Nature and Culture by Phillipe Descola.
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It's five days until the Summer Solstice, and the weather is
strangely and unseasonably cool here in the high desert of Southern California.
It'll heat up soon, but for now, the high winds are cool. If I knew more about
meteorology, perhaps I could say something more profound about this coming
transition from 75 degrees Fahrenheit to
over 100 in less than a week.
The one constant, though, is the wind. She roars. She truly
rules here.
A few days ago, I finally escaped my summer lethargy and
wandered out into the undeveloped, public (for now) land close to my childhood
home. The environment is chaparral, and very dry, dominated by squat, round
junipers. I had planned to do a little gathering and maybe some solitary ritual
after my hike, so I brought a small backpack with things I might need.
I crossed the field and climbed down into the wash, taking
my time. This wasn't for exercise, I reminded myself, but for observation.
There was a limited pallet of colors to enjoy, since the quick bloom of
wildflowers had long since passed and there was not enough water to support
anything but the hardiest of plants. I stopped to acknowledge how different the
wild space was from my own yard; my parents maintain a green lawn, and the
property is framed by soaring cottonwoods and some sad little pines, infested
with bark beetle.
Down in the wash, I followed the tracks left by the distant
memory of water, which had carved out a wide, sandy gully and exposed a low
cliff-face soft enough for animals to burrow into. I wondered when the last
time was that it had seen water. Probably not since the big floods I remembered
from my teenage years, almost ten years ago now.
Overhead, I heard the call of a raven. The desert ravens are
a ubiquitous presence here. If the wind rules, then the ravens are her
viceroys. They ride the waves of the wind and soar higher than any other bird
in the area, save for the falcons they greatly outnumber. Turning toward the
raven's call, I watched as two danced and played on the rising wind. Drawn
inexorably toward them, I climbed out of the wash and up a steep, conical hill,
upward until I was nearly level with their dance. On the way, I found a raven's
feather on the ground - evidence that this was a usual haunt of theirs, up here
where the relentless wind wraps around the cone of the hill and shapes it until
it is smooth.
I offered water from my canteen toward them on the wind, a
gesture of goodwill. I'm not sure if they understood, but it was my way of
reassuring them that I was a guest, not a trespasser.
The ravens soared around me and over me, buoyed on the wind
that threatened to blow me down from my precarious seat. Suddenly, a new cry -
not the low, croaking squawk of a raven, but the high-pitched, piercing call of
a falcon. I could see it against the grey-blue sky, bigger and wider of
wing-span than the ravens. The black-winged pair engaged the falcon in a
spectacular dog-fight. I wondered about the term; I used it instinctively as
the first association that came to mind was the stories my father told me about
jet-aircraft combat. But the way dogs fight on the ground is nothing like the
careful, sweeping, terrible dance in the sky that I witnessed that day.
The ravens escorted the falcon out of their territory, then
returned. I knew they had seen me, that they were watching me. (I almost wrote
that in the passive voice. We need to train ourselves, I think, to speak about
our animal Kindred as agents.) That they recognized my presence. In so doing, I
came into being, recognized and acknowledged by an Other.
I think, perhaps, that a different part of ourselves becomes
present when non-humans see us. The land sees us, feels us pass, and we become
a being moving through and across a body. The birds spy on us from overhead,
and we become a large, lumbering mammal, too large to be prey, but too
earth-bound to be predator. Rabbits scurry across our path, and we become a
source of fright, a potential threat, whether we wish to be or not.
We become more than our minds, our associations, our
affiliations at such times. We become members of a world that we shape, and
which shapes us. We do not leave culture behind, but become part of a larger
culture, an eco-culture, that speaks in a gestural and instinctual language,
one that speaks only in intimate and sympathetic relation to the rocks, the
sand, the swaying junipers, the lumbering beetles, and the rising wind.
A friend and colleague (such a sterile word for so important
a person!) of mine recently published an article titled "Tracking as a Wayof Knowing," in Written River: Journal of Eco-Poetics. This article expresses So's powerful
engagement with the world and creative way of speaking to and about it. I am
forever indebted to So for pointing me toward my own path of radical
engagement, one I'm slowly trying to tread in my own way.
Though So makes a number of profound points in the article,
I'd like to highlight a few lines from the conclusion:
"Seeing as the majority of beings on our planet (as
well as the rest of the universe) are non-human, we can expect a limited view
of reality if we aren’t welcoming efforts to soulfully relate to them. Let us
see beyond the jaded (and polarizing) caricature of the nature-hippie who
escapes from civilization to the forest. If the intention is not to leave but
to enter, not to hide but to belong, relationship with the non-human brings
back deep value to human community and enriches culture."
Tracking and nature-observation have value beyond pure
aesthetic appreciation or nostalgic attempts at "escape" from an
"unnatural" or "tainted" human world. In learning the
languages of the other-than-human world, we become more human. We learn that
our division between nature and culture is arbitrary, even illusory, because
culture is not our mastery over the land and manipulation of it, but rather a
complex set of tools that have emerged as a consequence of our speaking to and
with it. The memory of these ancient conversations has waned within the
post-industrial world, but it can be recovered.
Our modern cultural ways of knowing have become so
abstracted from our life-ways, our experience-of-being-alive, that we
wrongfully believe we can continue to think and speak and dream without reference
to the world around us. Our economics have become abstract - blind to the lived
realities and suffering of others. Our politics and even our talk of justice
have become abstract - focused on language and intention rather than the lived
experiences of struggling communities. Our philosophy has become as abstract as
it was for medieval Scholastics - no one now asks, "How many angels can
dance on the head of a pin?" and yet so many philosophers now spend their
time playing second-fiddle to the natural sciences, which themselves are
becoming mere servants of the technology race, driven by abstracted visions of
value and capital.
And the conditions which have enabled the human conversation
with the phenomenal world are changing. According to an article from the
American Association for the Advancement of Science, light pollution now makes
the Milky Way invisible to most humans on the planet. And Karen Emslie at
National Geographic writes that traditional calendars used by people in the
Pamir Mountains of central Asia are losing their effectiveness as a consequence
of Climate Change. This is one example of the ways in which human culture has
developed in conversation with the local landscape, one tried-and-true method
that has served humans for generation as they move in concert with their place
of being.
Lest my call for thinking with the land seems overly
romantic, my friend So reminds us that "In this view, feelings of
solidarity, love, and belonging that traverse the boundaries of species and
beyond are not luxuries or overly sentimentalized notions; they are functions
of ecological interdependency and are integral to survival." I would argue
that even the survival of post-industrial societies which believe themselves
masters over, or independent of nature, also depend upon re-developing our ties
of Kinship with the world around us, to bring our abstractions back down into
conversation with the world as it breathes and speaks to us.
Nor is religion exempt from this call - even so-called
"nature religions." How often do we speak about the
"spirit" of a tree or animal, but fail to engage with the tree or
animal itself? What wisdom can we learn from the spirit of a willow, an oak, a
raven, or a cotton-tail, if we don't know anything about how these Kindred of
ours actually live alongside us and other Beings? When we focus on
"essences," for example, we again abstract the lived reality of our
Kindred and extract them from the Web of Inter-Being that constitutes their -
and our - existence. Is the "spirit of the raven" anything more than
a carrier for our associations, when we ignore the relationship between the
raven and the wind? Between the raven and the dead it scavenges? Between the
raven and the mockingbird that chases it relentlessly, until the raven's
greater wing-span takes it beyond the smaller bird's range? What do we learn
from the abstract raven, when it speaks only as an image on a screen or paper,
rather than as a soaring, breathing, relating Being that shares a world with
us?
The view from the top of the hill was spectacular, While (as
I mentioned) the colors were limited, the landscape of the high-desert
foothills is stark and impressive. I currently live in a bowl-shaped valley,
framed by the foothills and the San Gabriel mountains. The wind gets channeled
through the valley and rushes down the hills, taking with it anything not tied
down. Aside from those trees nurtured by human landscaping, the wind prevents
anything taller than the squat, round juniper bushes which dot the landscape.
From my vantage point, I could see a rare mist roll in down
over the hills across the valley. Around me I felt the shuddering, twitching
celebration of a land animated by the wind. The atmosphere itself came alive
with the petrichor scent of microorganisms in the soil, of leaves opening their
pores, of the thirsty desert waking up and reaching out for the promise of
moisture.
I descended the hill and back down into the wash. Had the
wind carried a true rain storm, it would have been a dangerous place to be. I
remembered the flash-flood warnings that came seasonally before the drought
hit. But this was a gentle mist, just enough to bring relief to plants
well-adapted to drought conditions.
The land held the memory of humans in the wash too. The
tracks left by horses (both prints and manure) were accompanied by plastic bags
caught on thorn bushes, of old, rusted cans heaped up and bottles of beer
smashed against rocks.
In my solitary ritual, I addressed my Kindred of this land,
and begged their forgiveness for years of trespass and disrespect. I addressed
my ancestors and admonished them for their carelessness. Ancestors are
difficult. We are here because of them, and their wisdom is ours to work with.
But they were not always wise, or noble, or true. I tend to try to speak
formally while doing ritual, as it feels appropriate, but I couldn't resist the
thought that rose up out of my frustration, echoing sardonically in that
country way typical of my rural community:
Ancestors - you done fucked up.
I returned home, dirty and covered in stickers, but more at
peace than I had been for some time. Speaking with the land, or rather, being
silent and letting the land speak to me, has become my own form of therapy.
While medication for my anxiety and depression has absolutely helped me in the
past, I know that I cannot be healthy when I lock myself in my room for days.
Anxiety and depression are my constant companions, but their hold on me lessens
when the trees show me how to bend with the wind, when the ravens show me how
to soar and play in the roughest of gales, when the land itself presses back
under my foot and whispers, I feel you. I know you are here. Tread where you will,
but tread softly.
It is not simply "remembering" my Inter-Being with
the world that brings me out of the haze of depression. While remembering is
not purely mental (more on embodied cognition later), it is primarily that. In
actually walking under a cottonwood alive and thrashing in the wind, in
tracking the movement of a raven with my eyes, in feeling physically the land
under my feet, I am physically re-woven into the world that grew me. I am the
one being bodily re-membered by the world that is more than my worries and
neuroses.
How could this world-around-me not be the source of all that
is good, true, worthy, and meaningful? How could any abstract-presence, or
abstract-value, or abstract-ideal ever have the power to do what the grass
under my feet does?
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